Where you meet me...

​You meet me 6 years into my spiritual awakening process, 5 years into various shamanic trainings, a yoga and meditation teacher training and countless psychedelic medicine journeys later.
 

You meet me at a point in my life, where I have woken up to the limitlessness of my spirit within, to the connection of all living beings with each other, the universe and life itself, whilst trying to navigate this eternal spirit of mine in a physical body, in a 3D world, with a mind that is constantly screaming very loudly and demanding answers.
 

You meet me on a healing journey, trying to heal from my sexual abuse as a child, a perceived very lonely and isolated childhood, a life-long depression and one failed suicide attempt and overall a feeling of complete and utter unworthiness later.
 

You meet me at a crossroad in my life, where the new isn’t born into existence yet and the old and familiar is rapidly falling apart, leaving me gasping for air and security.
 

You meet me right here and right now. I decided to share with you the random ramblings of my mind, my daily struggles and my battle with life, my epiphanies, my latest break-throughs and my messages from the spirit world.

Our consciousness is forever evolving and our truth today will most certainly not be our truth in a year, a month, a week or maybe even tomorrow.

Growth seems to be painful and uncomfortable and my healing journey has neither been graceful, nor pretty, nor fast, nor is it complete yet. I am not claiming to have my shit together, for believe you me; I have not!
 

But if I learned one thing so far, it is that we are all truly in this together and that we are all fighting battles no one else knows about. I’m on a mission to break through that glass ceiling, to break the silence and open up; from one human being to another.
 

I believe it is time that we all come together in circles once more and learn how to pray, to sing, to paint and to dance, to hold sacred space for each other and to actually enjoy life!
 

I’m done with this bullshit production of constantly needing to pretend that everything is fine when it’s not! It’s ok not to be ok, it’s ok to be human and it’s ok not to have it all figured out. We are humans after all; living, breathing, thinking, feeling human beings in a mortal body with an eternal soul.

To navigate these paradoxes and polarities in itself feels like a full-time job to me.
 

So I invite you to join me in my explorations. My hope is that they might inspire you, put a smile to your face when you read through my struggles and that you might find comfort in the knowledge that you’re not the only one out there wondering and struggling.
 

In lack’ech ala k’in.
Kashaya